I remember once saying during our infertility journey that I felt like the darkness had a hold of me and I didn’t like the person I was becoming. Always sad, lonely, and angry. But it felt like I couldn’t control the darkness…it followed me everywhere I went. So many things were out my control and nothing ever seem to go right.
But there have been many of times, even before infertility, that I felt the darkness had a stronger hold than any sort of joy in my life.
Being able reflect back, I wish I would have taken the time to recognize the joy. Or even just believed that God’s plan is always good. This may mean you will have to be in the depths of the valley for longer than you want, but to push through and believe, you always end up on top of the mountain.
If you are hurting tonight and the darkness has a hold of you, whether it be you are hurting from your past, struggling to forgive, or your current season just feels like too much to handle…know that at some point you will be on the mountain top. And on that mountain top, you will see all the joy of God’s goodness.
Prayer for those who are hurting.
Dear Heavenly Father, let me see your goodness, even in the darkest of times. Help me to stay focused on your glory, even if I feel stuck in the depths of the valley. Stay close to me, even if I can’t feel your presence. Remind me that you are always good, even if it may not feel like it. In Jesus’ name, Amen.