We have a love problem.

I had a sad realization yesterday about the current state of our world and some of the most important verses in the Bible. Matthew 22:37-39.

Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.

Love your neighbor as yourself. Here’s the sad realization I had: What if you don’t love yourself?

Does this explain the abundance of hate-filled, degrading, arrogant behaviors among our cultural? If people aren’t truly content with their own lives, and they don’t have love for themselves, how are they to extend love to others?

I’m not speaking of selfish, self-centered ways of loving yourself. I’m talking about confidence, respect, and contentment within yourself.  The love that God has for us. Why has it become so difficult for us to extend that same love to others…

Or do we love ourselves too much? Have we lost sight of Verse 37? Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.

So I ask my fellow Christians, how do we, followers of Christ, fix this love problem?

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.

This little light of mine.

When I first created this image and had started this blog post on May 6th, I really thought it was suppose to head to the direction of some sort of parenting post. Something about fostering Samuel’s bold personality. But after several times of sitting down and trying to write, not a whole lot came to mind, so I quietly stepped away.

And then like God likes to do…today I had an ‘ah ha’ moment.

Today’s sermon at church was one of those sermons that left me speechless and in tears. And a reminder of God’s way of giving you exactly what you need, when you need it.

Since starting this whole blogging thing, I have questioned so many times why am I doing this? Is this really what God wants me to do? Or questioning how many views I had after posting a blog. Or what will people say about me? So many questions that have led to saying ‘ahhh maybe this isn’t for me’.

But today was a reminder of why I am doing this.

During church this morning, the elder providing the sermon gave us 11 ways to foster God’s will in our lives. One of the ways: let your light shine.

Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowel. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:15-16 NIV

I instantly thought about this post: insert my ah ha moment. While Samuel is absolutely my light…My journey to being Samuel’s mother is what needs to be put on a stand. Everything about that journey only glorifies God’s capabilities.

The brightest light that shines in my life came from the darkest points of my life.

I am a nobody. I’ve done nothing special in my life. I don’t deserve to have a beautiful story to share. But God has given me this story and I’m going to share it…

So let me encourage you tonight. God is capable of the unimaginable. He can perform things in your life that you thought would never happen. He can work miracles in YOU!

He will give you a light to shine bright to put on a stand…

If you draw near Him, He’ll draw near you. James 4:8.

So if you find yourself in the dark this evening, lost without a light to guide you…Hold God close to your heart, and He WILL provide you the light to find your way.

Giving Back: Helping a Family Adopt

Okay friends! I need your help. For a long time Tommy and I have been discussing wanting to give back to a family adopting. The support and love we received throughout our adoption journey was unbelievable, and we want a family to feel the same.

I have started a t shirt campaign. My goal is to raise at least a $1,000 to provide to a family in the adoption process.

Please follow the link below to order your t-shirt today! We only have until August 9th to order!

Here’s how bonfire works: In order for your t-shirt to be printed and shipped there has to be at least 5 shirts purchased. So once you order, it may take a bit to get your shirt. So the more you share, the quicker you might get your shirt!

Here’s the other fun part:

We don’t have a family in mind to provide the funds. So we are also on the hunt to find a family! If you know someone that is adoption, send them to My Song. His Story. for more updates on this!

And lastly, God has blessed us beyond belief and truly couldn’t haven’t done it without having our faith. So when trying to decide on theme for the shirt, I couldn’t think of a better design then using My Song. His Story’s catch phrase: Good, bad, big, small…pray about it all.

Campaign link ➡️ Here

One more note: Bonfire is currently working to get the white in between the letters, so when your shirt arrives it will only be black lettering 😁


I think it’s human nature to have timelines set-up in our heads. Or maybe it’s society that pushes agendas on us. Either way, I think it’s safe to say that most have these ideas in our heads of how things will play out. For us, we truly thought we had our lives planned out from marriage on.

The plan: pregnant with baby #1 shortly after we were married, build our home, baby #2 shortly after that, then we would decide about baby #3. And when my fertility tracker app showed that I’d be ovulating on our wedding night (this is almost laughable now of how naive I was!), I truly thought: “what great timing! This is going to work out perfectly.” The plan was going to be perfect..

If you’ve read any of my previous blogs, you’ll know that is not how things worked out for us.

There have been so times that I thought: “oh, I see, I bet it was suppose to go this way.” But I was wrong…a lot actually.

The whole IVF process was so overwhelming, but I thought there were so many signs that things were going to work out. We cycled around Lent and the leading up to Easter.

We did a day 3 transfer…meaning that 3 days after our one sweet little embryo was created, it was transferred.

I remember thinking: how perfect. The most amazing thing also occurred in just 3 days…the death and resurrection of Christ. I’m suppose to find out if I’m pregnant on Good Friday. Perfect! (Sounds perfect, right?!)

But things did not go the way we had planned.

Holidays were hard. Birthdays were hard. Every big event (well the small ways too) that passed us by of not being parents was hard. The waiting and the repeated let down of wondering about God’s timing was hard.

But let me tell you about God’s timing.

One year after our failed IVF. Our adoption profile went live on Good Friday.

May 12th, 2015, 2 days after Mother’s Day. We got the call we were matched with an expectant birth mother.

Thanksgiving 2015. None of our family knew that we were in a hospital in another state holding our child. We got to FaceTime them and surprise them with the newest family member.

You see, all the times I became angry or sad about things not happening when I thought they should…God just had a better plan for me.

So whatever you have going on in life with those situations that don’t seem to make sense, the Lord could just be planning something way better! Something that you can’t even fathom. He will provide!

And remember…

Hold on tight to Him throughout the process and He promises to carry you along the way.

Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. Isaiah 46:6 NIV

Honoring the struggles.

Yesterday while listening to music, I was jamming out to Rend Collective’s “Count Every Blessing.” Man, if you haven’t checked this song out…it’s a must. Let me link it—>here! But it just pumps me up every time I listen to it. It’s such a beautiful reminder of God’s goodness.

But as I was listening, I thought to myself “what is a blessing?”  I know I have been ‘blessed’ a million times over again, but what is considered a blessing? Which led me to a recent conversation in my small group at church where I made a comment about trying to always honor my struggles. Then it led me to this….are all of our struggles blessings?

If you would have asked me this even just a few years ago, I would have 100% said “umm absolutely not, no way!” I would likely said that was preposterous and you are insane.  But today, I’m going to say “100% yes!”. Let me tell you why…

God is good…ALL OF THE TIME [I think I’ve said this before].
I know it doesn’t seem like it sometimes. You feel abandoned and lonely; God is no where to be found. But just because God is saying ‘no’ or you feel like he’s not with you, doesn’t mean he doesn’t have a plan for you. I wish I would have had crystal ball at the start of our infertility journey. If I would have been able to see the path God was taking us, it would have saved a lot of heartache. But that’s not how it works….this is where trust has to come in.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV

It may not all make sense now, but we have to trust that God’s goodness will come full circle and in the end, He’s been setting us up for something way more amazing than we could have ever imagined.

I have often said that I am thankful for being infertile. I am thankful IVF never worked. I am thankful for being at rock bottom, but still having the strength to look up and say “Lord, I need you right now.”  All of those things led to a journey that I am beyond grateful to have experienced. All of this led to being Samuel’s mother. And if you know him, he’s kind of amazing [no bias here at all, ha].

But even way before infertility…

19 years ago, my life changed in a way that I held so much regret onto for so many years [too many years]. It affected every single part of my being. I was left shattered into a million pieces for way too long…

But today, I am thankful for that experience.

Would I want to erase it and make it never happen? Sure, maybe. But it made me who I am today. That struggle set me up for beautiful blessings. Even despite self-loathing for years with regret and shame….I am going to honor that. Without the struggle, I wouldn’t be where I am today…and to dig even further. If I wouldn’t have struggled with infertility, I don’t think I would have ever dealt with some of the things that I had been greatly struggling with for all those years…and those things needed to be dealt with.

So back to my original question….are our struggles blessings?

I have to believe that answer is 100% yes.

The struggle is real…

Listen, I know the struggle is real. I know it’s hard when you feel like if one more bad thing happens in life, right off the edge you’re going to go. It’s overwhelming and frustrating when it’s hit after hit. Life can feel just plan hard sometimes. But let me remind you of few things…

A) God is good, all the time.


B) “I can do all this through Him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13 NIV

The enemy wants us to live in the struggle. He doesn’t want us to just step over the edge. He wants us running and jumping over the edge. And he will do everything in his power to take us there. So let me give you a different perspective when you feel those repeated hits.

If the enemy is repeatedly hitting, God is setting you up for something good.

Why would the enemy want you to stay in line with God? He doesn’t. He wants to tear us down, break us into pieces, and have us going over the edge. So we have to stay steadfast and stay in line with Lord.

So if you feel like you’re close to the edge and just don’t know how much more you can take…take a step back, go to your knees, and take a moment with God. He’ll guide you, he’ll hold you if need be, and he will most certain help you stay away from the edge. And remember…this just may a season that God is preparing you for goodness; and not the attack that it feels.

Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
James 1:12 NIV

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew 5:3 NIV

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.  Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
1 Peter 5:8-9 NIV

The struggle is real...

Redeemed: Part 2

The past 2 week has felt a little crazy. I started this blog post 5 days ago! So can we just pretend like I was on it and got this posted 5 days ago?!! Okay, thanks. Ha.

Anywho, due to the craziness, things at My Song. His Story. have felt quiet, so I was super excited when God gave me some thoughts this morning (remember we’re pretending I actually posted this on Sunday as planned! Ha) while at church for a new blog post. (And I’ll also be thankful for the unexpected quiet time this evening to finish!)

When I originally wrote Redeemed: Part 1, I really didn’t know why I added the “part 1”. I didn’t have anything in mind at the time, but had a feeling there would be more to come. The circumstances of why I wrote the original post has such significant meaning in my life; a turning point if you will. So when I think of the word “redeemed”, I feel a sense of peace and excitement.

The pastor at the church I’ve recently been attending as been doing an amazing series called “In a Word.”  Each week focuses on a word that is important to the Christian faith. Sunday’s word: redeemed.

While pastor was talking, I wrote down: redemption = confidence. It wasn’t until I was driving home (this is honestly where I do most of my thinking) after having to work for a few hours Sunday as to why redemption would equal confidence. Here’s what I came up with:

When you live your life with a sense of being redeemed, you remove worry, doubt, shame, and low-self worth. When you live your life as the redeemed individual you are, you live with security, assurance, and confidence.

How you view life. How you handle hard times. How you manage adversities that would have normally left you crumbled.

When you realize your worth of being redeemed, the value of what that means…your whole perspective changes.

When you come to the understanding that there is a God that so graciously placed His only Son on this Earth, free of sin, to die on the cross for YOU, for all of us…how is this not life changing?

You gain confidence. Confidence in all aspects of your life. You know, that despite the sinful world we have to go up against everyday, God has you every step of the way.

So raise that chin high, move forward with confidence, because as a redeemed child of God…you can handle anything!

Best Advice?

On my way into work this morning, in standstill traffic due to an accident, I was listening to KLove as I always do…today’s question was asking about the best advice you have ever given or gotten. A mom called in and shared her beautiful response that she always reminds her children to put God first in everything they do. Sounds like pretty solid advice to me!

But then it got me thinking…what was the best advice I’ve ever received.

My college/young adulthood years were not pleasant ones. And while I try not to have regrets, I often get the “could of, would of, should of”‘s when I think back on how I lived my life from ages 18 to 25. I can only say that while I would do things differently, I am who I am today due to my past. I am not that same person, and I’ve most definitely learned from my past.

When I was a 5th year senior at Penn State University, I decided with only 16 credits left, I needed to take a break. To say my parents were upset is an understatement. I’m sure many thought I’d never go back and I’d be stuck in a dead end job for the rest of my life. But I realized a few years after dropping out that I not only needed my degree, but I wanted my degree. So at 25 I went back and finished strong!

I had a completely different view on education…and this is where I received the best advice I had ever gotten.

Since I was completing a bachelors in science, many of my last courses were focused on several areas of science, one being in genetics.  I had no clue I’d ever have a love for genetics, but I found myself completely infatuated with genetics. I mean the human body is truly a miracle. DNA…mind blowing.

But it was my genetics professor that gave me advice that has stuck with me after all these years.  I went to her during office hours to get some help for an upcoming exam and I expressed my new found love for genetics, which she was obviously very excited to hear she touched someone’s life with her genetics class.  Little does she know, her next words would be life changing for me.

She told me that whenever I see someone doing what I want to do, ask that individual how they got there. What steps did they take to be where they are.

I have used this advice in many aspects in my life.

But this morning I had a much deeper thought about this advice…what if I want to be like Jesus. That is what we are called to do, right? Be Christ-like?

To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps
1 Peter 2:21

As much as I’d love to sit down with Jesus and say, “so tell me more about your journey to being the Messiah, the chosen one”, unless it’s ‘my time’ or the rapture happens today, a face-to-face sit down won’t be occurring.

But do you know what I do have….The Word! Everything we’d need know to be Christ-like is right there, written out for us.

So here’s what I found:

Christ’s mission on Earth was to fulfill the promises of God. He kept his focus on God at all times. Even in the wilderness with temptation in his face, He chose God.

-Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2 (NIV) 

Everything about Christ is/was perfect. While we are sinful humans and it is impossible to meet perfection, we can try. And part of this process…recognizing that other’s are also imperfect sinful humans, trying to be perfect. So show other’s grace.

-“You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous……Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly father is perfect.” Matthew 5: 43, 44, 48 (NIV) 

-“For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.” Matthew 6:14 (NIV)

Part of Christ focusing on God led him to trusting all aspects of God’s plan. He didn’t worry about yesterday or tomorrow. He just trusted.

-“Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” Matthew 6:27 (NIV)

-“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34 (NIV)

And Jesus loves. There is nothing fake or condescending about his love. He just loves wholeheartedly and unconditionally.

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13: 34-35 (NIV). 

I’m sure I could list many more attributes of being Christ-like and quoting scripture, but the above spoke most loudly to me. And to me, an important reminder of what it means to be like Christ.

Taking things for granted…

While mediating and praying during communion at church on Sunday, I had a random thought: Did the Apostles truly comprehend how special they were to be in the presence of Jesus during the Last Supper and through the crucification to the resurrection?

I mean we could probably assume Judas didn’t fully comprehend the magnitude of Jesus and the significance behind the Last Supper. Let’s be honest, the dude totally turned his back on Jesus and betrayed him to the fullest extent….Or maybe he did know and this is just an example of  how easy it is to slip away from what we know to be true and take things for granted in our lives.

I would hope that we aren’t all betraying our loved ones in ways that will end up having them arrested and put to death….but the reality is, we are all guilty of losing sight of what’s important and taking things for granted. That includes our loved ones.

Judas was a sinful human (just like us) looking to benefit from his position. John 12:4-6 (NIV), illustrates Judas’ sinful behaviors prior to even betraying Jesus. In verse 5, Judas is angry that Mary poured perfume on Jesus’ feet stating “it was worth a year’s wage” and “this perfume should be sold and the money given to the poor” But Judas did not care about the poor, he was just angry that the perfume was now unable to be sold, which he likely planned on stealing the profits, as he was a thief (verse 6).

Jesus chose his Apostles to follow Him while he was in the flesh and walking this Earth….He chooses us to do the same during our time on Earth.

As a counselor I’m often working with individuals on being in the present moment and practicing mindfulness. Truly being aware of your surroundings and appreciating the little things. The feel of the warm breeze on your skin, the smell of fresh cut grass, children laughing in the distance…whatever you can focus on to keep you grounded in the moment.

But I am also a realist and know that it’s also easy to get caught up in the thoughts of the 5,000 things that need accomplished today, 10,000 things you feel like you didn’t get accomplished yesterday, and you don’t even want to think about what lies ahead for tomorrow. Am I right?

But we also know that those are the moments the enemy likes to sneak into our days and complicate things. Those are the moments when it’s easy to slip away from the truth and take things from granted.

Those are the moments that instead of thanking your spouse for doing all of the dishes, you complain that they didn’t get the coffee ready. Those are the moments that we complain about the sun being too hot, but other’s are experiencing devastating floods. Those are the moments when we complain about having to get up and go to work, but others are struggling to get by due to unemployment. Those are the moments we are mad at our love ones, but others are grieving for just one more day with the ones they’ve lost.

Judas was probably motivated by greed and saw benefit in following Jesus, but nothing positive came from his behaviors. Actually we learn in Matthew 27, that he had such remorse for his behaviors that ended his own life. Judas lost sight of the truth.

So how do we not lose sight of the truth and take things for granted? I have to believe that having a grateful heart always keeps us in line with the truth and not take what God has provided to us for granted. And how to do that: put God first (Matthew 6:3), love one another (1 John 3:11), and build each other up (Ephesians 4:29).

There is always something to be grateful for, even in the darkest of seasons. So I challenge you today to think of all the wonderful things God has provided to you and thank Him for those things. I’d imagine this would probably be a good start to gaining a grateful heart.

Turning 38

For whatever reason, turning 38 tomorrow feels old. Yes, I know “that’s not old”, “you don’t look 38 at all”, “you’re just baby”, “its just a number”. While all of those things may be true, I have found myself in this spot today of…humph. I don’t want to be 38.

When we decided that we would try to expand our family last year, I remember thinking, “okay, getting pregnant before 38, doesn’t seem so bad”. So tomorrow I turn 38 and pregnancy never happened. So I find myself, well a bit sad. (It’s part of this needing to grieve and let go thing I’m trying to do!)

But who wants to be sad on their birthday!? So I’m gonna turn that frown upside and find joy in turning 38 tomorrow.

For me, I often find joy doing for others. And I’m going to ask all of you to join me in finding joy along with me in celebration of my 38th birthday.

So my plan tomorrow is to do good deeds for others, pay it forward, and be extra kind when I see the opportunity! Will you join me as well??

And as always I’m going to allow scripture to guide me…

“In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good and glorify your Father in Heaven.” Matthew 5:16 NIV

“Command then to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share” 1 Timothy 6:18 NIV

“And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased.” Hebrews 13:16 NIV

“Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit who listen.” Ephesians 4:29 NIV